”We’re all puppets, Laurie. I’m just a puppet who can see the strings.”

Monday was out with my aunt and cousins to eat and shop for abit at Orchard. Tuesday went for lunch with my mum and sis at Causeway Point Gelare then went to SYFC but halfway through they sms-ed to say flight cancelled. So I went to meet my mum and sis and we went to my grandparents’ house. Today went to eat with my parents sis and uncle at IMM. I like Peking duck, but I still think they one at Yishun SAFRA is still the best, wonder if the restaurant’s still there though.

Now my parents are out again, my sis is sleeping and I’m just doing random errands for everyone.

I’m falling sick with a flu and cold ): Bad timing to fall sick.

Tomorrow going all the way to Arab street just for the food then maybe to Changi beach and the club there for dinner, been years since we last went there. If not then will be just movie though I can’t find a nice movie right now or something then go Changi on friday.

I need a shower badly. Then tv time for me + wait for my dinner to come home! :D

I’ve been really accident-prone these few days. Cut myself twice with the knife, then kicked the toilet door by accident. Now I’ve got two healing cuts on my fingers and one blue-black on my heel D:

I started on this book called “Sleepers” yesterday and I think I can finish it by tonight. It’s a very nice story. True story, but quite scary cos of the various events. I borrowed quite a few books so this holiday I can read and not waste my time :D

 

We’re all part of something.

Something big and important and magical.

Past few days have been good :D I’m so proud of myself I’ve actually spent this morning watching my show + doing SMPF. Going out later with mum sis aunt cousins. Time to shower and get ready! :D :D

Tomorrow flying again I need to study more. Next few days will be going out alot and doing very little proper work.

 

For in dreams, we enter a world that’s entirely our own.

Hello Christmas, hello Santa. I miss you so :D

Twenty-nine days to that time of the year again :D

 

Name That Tune
“Outside the snow is falling and friends are calling.” Don’t know.
“Good tidings for Christmas and a happy New Year.” We wish you a merry Christmas.
“The lights are turned way down low…” Idk.
“In the meadow we can build a snowman.” Idk.
“Oh what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh!” Jingle bells.
“Remember, Christ, our Savior was born on Christmas Day.” God rest ye, merry gentlemen.
“Not only green when summer’s here, but also when ’tis cold and drear.” Idk.
“And Heaven, and Heaven and nature sing.” Joy to the world.
“Tis the season to be jolly, fa la la la la, la la la la.” Deck the halls.
“Down through the chimney with lots of toys…” Idk

First Thought That Comes To Mind When You Hear…
Pinecones! Uh, don’t know.
Elves! Weird ears.
Sleigh! Santa in it.
Presents! Shopping.
Cookies! Chocolate chips?
Misletoe! :D :D
Rudolph! “Rudolph the red nose reindeer…”
Blizzard! Yucks.
School’s Canceled! :D
Ice Skating! Ice hockey.
Santa’s Lap! Cute kids hahaha.
Black Friday! Unlucky.
God’s Son! Jesus.
Melting Snow! Water.
Lumps of Coal! Fire.
Nutcracker! Hazelnuts & Ferrero Rocher.
Ho Ho Ho! Jerdine :D
North Pole! Santa + Rudolph + Elves.

Christmas At My House…(one or the other)
Tree is fake/real? Fake.
Tree is under/above 4′? No idea.
Open presents Christmas Eve/Day? Day.
House/entire yard is decorated? Nah.
Amount of presents under the tree? Depends.
Snowman is a male/female? Don’t have one ):
Homemade/delivered/takeout Christmas dinner? Homemade.
Bedtime is before/after midnight? Before. If you don’t sleep early, Santa won’t come.
Wake-up is before/after 7am? After.
Go/don’t go to church on Christmas? Christmas eve.
Pray & sing Happy Birthday/do nothing before bed? Pray.
Low-key/over the top decorations (inside and out)? Low-key.

Christmas 101
Color of Rudolph’s nose? Red.
Jesus’ Virgin Mother? Mary.
What made Frosty come to life? Don’t know hahaha who’s Frosty anyway?
Two main colors of Christmas? Red and green
Does Mrs. Claus have a first name? No idea.
Where does Santa live? North pole.
True love gave what on the second day of Christmas? Two something.
What kind of nuts are roasting on an open fire? No idea.

Make Up Your Own Christmas Tale
Once upon a time, there was a: wonderful person by the name of Stella
Who couldn’t stop: Being nice to others.
After a while, she fell asleep next to a: talking reindeer.
When they woke, there was: a man who had kidnapped Santa.
Thanks to them: Santa was saved, the kidnapper was arrested, and everyone got their presents.

How Does He Do It?
Get down the chimney? He moves down slowly by a rope which is tied around the top of the chimney.
Deliver presents all over the world? The reindeers can fly at the speed of light.
Get so fat and still act so jolly? He eats so much during Christmas but loses weight during spring.
Recruit reindeer for sleigh-pulling lessons? The reindeers do volunteer work and in return learn the skill of flying.
Provide compensation for elves making toys? The elves don’t have to work any other time of the year! Annual leave of 300 days.
Stay unseen from the rest of the world? He’s only unseen by those who don’t believe.

Hahaha I happily deleted alot of questions cos they were so boring :D

 

I want to live a beautiful life:

Hope everyone’s been having fun so far this holiday, no matter how tired you get each day. At least enjoy what you do! (: I do enjoy each day as it comes and goes :D

Agenda for today, tomorrow, and friday:
# Slackkk! :D Feels like holiday to me now. Cos SYFC closed, then next week my parents are on leave, and from the week after onwards, I’ll be busy trying to chiong my sorties. So must take the opportunity to relax :D
# Read the papers diligently every single day.
# Learn to play 2 or maybe 3 new pieces.
# Plan next week’s activities ;)
# SMPF :|
# And maybe go out if anyone is free/feels like going out.
#Revise for SYFC frequently.
# Curl up in my comfy sofa and watch at least five hours of tv each day :D
#Really finish packing my stuff, as in put all of last sem’s stuff where they should be since I won’t need them much anymore.

Weekends probably going out since my sis will be back from OBS by then! (:

Yesterday’s flight was good, but super hot. Very little clouds, visibility good, and we went up higher to Bravo. Finished S&L 2, will be redoing it the next sortie again since I am like one lesson ahead. But the next time I might not get Tan SL for the next few flights. She’s going on leave from don’t know when till don’t know when, so I’ll probably get other instructors. Which probably means I’ll prepare more and prepare better each time. Maybe it’s not so bad.

After that I went to Orchard with my mum cos she had an appointment with the gynae. And then we went to my grandparents’ house before meeting my dad to go to Ikea to buy stuff. I bought straws too, cos we have finished using the straws we had at home. I like the straws Ikea sells now. It’s like 4 colours, black purple red green. And the straws are like half coloured half transparent, super cool.

Came back not too late, had a bath, then watched tv.

I haven’t been sleeping well. Somehow I wake up before the alarm rings. Like after 9 hours of sleep I auto-wake up. Not nice at all ): I want to sleep more.

I like the song Therapy.

Reminds me of the video Herngyi showed in class that day. I used to think that humans don’t die when I was younger. I thought every single one of us just grew older, had more white hair, slowly lost the ability to speak english, walked slower, had more wrinkles as each day passes by. I didn’t know what dying was. Of course, it all changed when I really saw someone lying in the casket, eyes closed and not moving and everyone mourning and crying. How nice if we won’t ever die. No more illnesses and diseases as well, then this world would be a step towards perfection. But planet earth would have to be constantly expanding to cater to the needs of a rapidly increasing population, it’s quite cool if this actually happens.

 

I don’t know where I’m going with this life, but I hope it’s somewhere wonderful,

Friday

Last day of school. We had some kind of mini-party, then we just hanged around, cleaned the classroom, cleared the lockers, played some cards, and the whole class got together to play some game. I think it’s called “Do you like your neighbour?” or something like that. Then we watched some video Herngyi recommended. And Belinda gave each of us a CD of a video (: Got back results as well. Guess I did okay. And then I think I went home and just watched tv for the rest of the day.

Saturday

Was a very happy day :D Morning was at syfc, supposed to end at like 3plus, but then we ended at almost 12nn. And the bus came immediately after we reached the bus stop haha. So I went to my aunt’s house for lunch, then watched tv, before going to Seletar Country Club for my cousin’s wedding. My sis and I went early with my aunt and cousin, so we got to see the make up and haristyling and stuff, and even helped my cousin wear her bridal gown, cool. Then we sat at the reception area telling people which table they were supposed to sit at. The wedding ended at almost 11pm, I was already so tired by then I just came home and slept.

Sunday

Got planned for a flight, but it was cancelled cos of the wind. Tmr got flight too, I hope I can fly, if not I have like three consecutive cancelled flights, and I’ve been studying the same thing over and over again before I go down each time. So I went to West Mall to meet my family and we had lunch, then walked around for awhile before going home to watch tv for the rest of the day.

Today (Monday)

Will be at home the whole day. Just finished watching my show. I need to study for my flight tmr later. Then exercise, and pack some stuff.

These few days have been absolutely great. The holiday’s just started. And I’ve told myself that this holiday will be more fufilling than any previous one. I’m not gonna waste my time idling away. I’ll do as many things as I can, even if they don’t lead me anywhere real. Been waking up pretty early the last few days. Even today, I woke up at 9am, which is early by my holiday standards :D Feels good to know that I’ve got alot of time left today.

My sis has gone for OBS.

 

There was once was a tree, and she loved a little boy.

Flight was cancelled today due to weather. It started raining very heavily. So I just had a short briefing about meteorology. And then it was juts rubbish talk and listening to this PPL guy talking about navigational routes and R/T exam. Too cheem, I don’t understand.

Can slack tonight already :D Cos tomorrow no sim/flight. Going down to SYFC three days in a row is quite tiring. The journey there is already very tiring. But today was so wasted, I really wanted to fly, cos I had already memorise my checks and stuff quite well. Anyway, thanks Nelson for helping me with memorising! I still have those stuff in my head I can’t really forget them anymore hahaha :D

Last day of school tomorrow. And second proper day of school I’m having this week. The only day I attended full day of school so far was monday. Tomorrow should be better than monday though, cos no talks. Just mentor group stuff and clean classroom. And yeah transcript, although we all probably kiasu enough to calculate our GPAs/CAPs already lah.

till they’re singing:
La, la la la,la la la
‘Til everyone is singing.
– If it means alot to you by A Day To Remember

 

Appearances prove nothing and everything;

I hate it when people go to the extent of hurting other with harsh words or unfair treatment just to protect their friends. Especially when everyone has a part to play in getting something done, and just cos your friend isn’t the kind of person who likes to do it, you force the job upon someone else, and be unhappy when the person is unable to comply when he/she initially said okay but also told you that he/she most probably won’t be able to complete the task cos he/she has other more important commitments. He/She was nice enough to offer the time if available. And in the first place, he/she didn’t have to even bother helping you fill that empty space. Since your friend is so free with nothing to do, can’t he/she play his/her part for the group? Stop giving other that shitass attitude. Protect your friend, but do it the right way.

Aptly describes my mood now.

Flying again tomorrow :D Makes up for all the shit I’m feeling right now. I was just casually thinking of some random event which happened some time ago and I realized how selfish people can get. I’m sure I myself am like that too, but I really try my best to be as nice as possible to the people who deserve it.

Anyway, today’s sortie was good, cos I got Tan SL plus I was better at the controls + more confident of everything in general today :D Tan SL is really nice. I think probably cos she graduated with PPL from SYFC also, so she can like understand how it feels to be flying your first few sorties. I was more familiar with my checks and R/T today, which was really good. But my taxying still sucks. Bad bad bad, I hope I do better tomorrow. I’ll be spending my whole morning during CCA studying for S&L 2. Cos I almost finished what I’m supposed to do on sortie 3 today, which means tomorrow I’ll probably be doing one lesson ahead also.

Went back to school after flying today. To submit my application but I forgot to bring my photo, so tomorrow. Hung around outside staff room talking. Then to hostel with Nelson&Mariel to do their fingerprinting, before going to Lot 1 with my sis to get her stuff and my lunch.

I just wasted an afternoon slacking hahaha but it felt good. I shall go exercise awhile then bathe and get ready for dinner+tv! :D :D Slacking tonight hah cos I got so much time to study tomorrow.

 

You got a pretty vision in your head,

Now get to work and realize it.

I feel very confused. A part of me hopes it rains tomorrow cos I don’t feel prepared for sortie 2 tomorrow. Then I’ll just go there, sign my form (I forgot to get Mr Hi to sign it today! So tomorrow got two forms.), and update my file if not later kena scolding again. The other, slightly smaller part of me hopes it doesn’t rain if not I’ll be wasting my time and wasting a chance to fly.

But either way, I’ll still be going down to SYFC tmr morning, then go to school after that to submit my pre-u form before going home and sleeping my ass off if I don’t have SIM planned for thurs. If I have, means mugging again.

Looks like it will probably rain again tonight or tmr morning.

Today’s SIM was super short, like only 40minutes. But I couldn’t really get the hang of flying straight&level. For me, it’s really a feel kinda thing. Time to study and understand it instead of just doing things based on my feel. So today sometimes Mr Hi would say “Very good.” or “Very nice.”, then other times he will be very shocked and ask me “What happened? What you doing?” Luckily tmr is EOC2, which I more or less prepared and went through some in sortie 1.

But I was better at the checks today :D I could remember more! Somehow I think the cockpit, be it in the sim or in the real aircraft, is intimidating. Makes me forget stuff and think more slowly :| But I’m improving, which is good! :D And my taxying skills are better also. But I tried landing and couldn’t land properly I landed on the grass patch instead of the runway hahaha but still, not bad lah :D :D

Oh, and I got bio&chem hons. Heard from Tang alot of people from 401 got that combi too. I hope Nelson and Jerdine get that too, cos I really want to get into same class as them.

Okay, time to memorise&practise checks now!

 

Hello friend, I’m not in a position to say anything, but still,

Sometimes tears just have to run their courses. But really, all you have to do is to leave the broken pieces alone, move on, and start a new episode of your life after a good cry. Or do you think wasting your time on something which is already gone and distant is better? No, don’t waste your life, don’t waste your parents’ and friends’ concern for a person who they always thought was wonderful. Change for the better, not the worse. You’re still as wonderful, you just need to realize that. So dry up your tears and smile (:

Went to NUH with Nelson and Jerdine after school today. We had lunch there, then we sat around for very long, just talking random stuffs, which was fun. And continued talking alot more all the way until we parted at the mrt station. Meaningless talk is fun, we were talking about shitting. It’s a wonder how we talk about such stuffs. I think we talked about it quite loudly on the bus somemore lol, but it was nice, thinking and talking about useless things just for fun. And that was the highlight of my day :D

Other than that, we just had talk after talk, sitting in the audi for half the day. Exchange programs, curiosity and spiders, SSEF&ATS, both of which are irrelevant to me at the moment, and some pro Wizfolio website thing.

Time to eat and bathe and watch tv and study!

 

Just remember, when you should grab something, grab it; when you should let go, let go;

Last childlit session today, and I went! With Alison, and Shaun and Joan.

The tattoo’s really huge D: I would think that making it look like an armband would look much better. But not getting it is even better.

Sat around in the canteen for awhile with Alison after running away to the supposed toilet hahaha damn funny. Then we went up to church early. Got out favourite seat where we used to always sit in sec 3 with Rika haha. First row somemore, we love attention AHAHA :D But after that we shifted to some back row with Shaun. During mass today I really prayed for alot of people, somehow it seemed like so many people are having trouble with this or that. And I kept thinking about alot of things. Useless things, but I just kept wondering.

After mass went to West Mall for lunch with the two of them. Listened to them talk for most of the time. Then I bought hairclips, finally, I’ve been using my old ones for so long already the colour’s abit off. I think guys shouldn’t wear hairbands, they usually look very weird. Not used to. Then we went to Popular and Harvery Norman to look at random stuffs like children’s books and phones and fans cos I wanted to hahaha. Damn childish right :D :D

Walked Alison to the bus interchange but didn’t stay for long cos she just missed the bus. Quite alot of things happening these few days. This week’s gonna be a busy week. Lots of things to do, to learn, to try.

Y’know, sometimes there are some people who we just have nothing to talk to about. It’s not that we don’t like talking to them, it’s just, no common topics. It’s really weird, cos we act friendly with each other but actually we don’t really have much to say to each other. For me I prefer to avoid these people. Just try to get out of their sight, so at least there won’t be any awkwardness.

 

I thought, but now I know this ain’t gonna be a dream come true,

» Scriptchecking’s finally over, more or less know my final grades for most subjects already. Pretty much satisfied with most of my results. At least I’m not exactly sad or disappointed or anything, cos I know I didn’t study much, I don’t even deserve some of my marks.

» We’re all at the mercy of our grades, our CAP. Everything we do, we always consider how well we’ll do in it first, whether our grades, our schoolwork will be affected. Sometimes our grades make us uncertain of our capabilities, we’d rather trust someone else’s work than our own. Other times we prioritise grades over our interests. Isn’t that so pathetic?

» SYFC starting at 10am instead of 9am tomorrow :D More sleep haahha. Hopefully Jiayi gets to fly today, it’s raining so heavily right now.

» Mariel’s such a funny person. “Don’t do something that you will regret.” Back at you hah! :D Hahaha okay so I think I’m gonna drop math honours. Bio&chem should be enough to keep me occupied! Besides, I failed math hons exam this sem. I’m not made out for math. So why hold on tightly to something which will make me feel miserable later on? No more math hons, I’m as happy as I can ever be :D :D

» I feel like a sore and jealous ass now I have no idea why I’m being affected just like that. No confidence in myself, no confidence in anyone else. I once thought I knew myself well, I once thought nothing was going wrong, nothing would go wrong, but today I know it was just a daydream, an unrealistic thought on my part.

 

Standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your hearts out,

First sortie over I’m damn tired. In the end I got a four only. Aiya but nevermind. I really did make quite a few mistakes. But so many were so dumb. Hopefully next time I don’t make the same mistakes again. I reached SYFC at like 10.30am then briefing, then flew for only 0.8 hours but in the end I only finished debrief at like 2pm! So long right!

After that I went to Causeway Point to get the photos.

Jonathan and Elston we’ve gotten your presents ready already! :D I bet both of you will love your presents cos they’re super cool ahahaha.

Scriptchecking tomorrow.

Stupid retarded feeling within me telling me I won’t make it. Go away, shoo.

 

We’re all made of stars (:

Higher chinese O’s wasn’t that bad, but school’s paper was definitely easier. Finally over, just waiting for scriptchecking on thurs and fri to get back all my wonderful (not) results.

First sortie tomorrow! Wa super excited but also scared. Later go there and blank out D: I hope I get a 4 or 5. My target is a five! :D Must memorise all my checks and R/T properly later tonight/tomorrow morning.

Went for lunch at Vivo with my mum and sis today at this Indonesian food place. The food is nice hahaha. Candy empire’s got lots of cool stuff for X’mas! But I didn’t buy any lah. All quite impractical, even if I give people they wouldn’t eat it. My presents for people have always been quite useless but heck, cool can liao :D Went for my appointment @ NUH afterwards. Then met my dad and went for dinner. I want to drink milk now hahaha my house has chocolate, strawberry and plain milk! :D :D

 

May you be blessed with the wisdom and courage to face all the difficulties, to accept the challenge.

 

Life has taught me to rely on myself,

Everyone’s been writing long dedications to every single person in class, but since I don’t exactly talk to alot of people/ am close to alot of people in class, so yeah, a short one for the class before the year closes(:

Dear 401,

(Almost) Everyone’s been really wonderful. I’m sure we’ve had our share of fun, laughter, joy. Especially the last term of this year. Our class is really made up of so many different kinds of people, sane ones, loud ones, quiet ones, crazy ones, etcetc. But isn’t that exactly make us so fun? Most of us probably aren’t exactly on close terms with alot of other people. We play together, talk together, but end of the day, most of them will turn into hi-bye friends when we leave this class. Next year, how many of these people who once were my classmates will I say hi to, stop and talk to?

Tang, Jonathan, Elston – Thanks for just being there. Without you guys I really don’t know how I’d survive in this class. Cos I really can talk so much to you all. I know sometimes I’ve been outright childish and immature and stubborn and damn attitude, but I guess that’s just me, and you all are probably used to it already right :D Tang, I think these two years we’ve gotten alot closer. Like, P5 and P6 we were quite close, then Year1 and Year2 we just didn’t talk much anymore, but getting into the same class again, we’ve definitely known each other more. Jonathan you’re one crazy person who I can talk to about everything and who understands me quite alot, I must say. I think cos of you I became so outspoken, so slack. Not that it’s not good. Actually I prefer myself now :D Elston thanks for being the one who usually does the most work during projects (bio especially) and being there to talk to and complain about other people to (: Hope you three get into the same class next year! I’ll still go bug you all all the time ahhahha!

Danielle, Belinda – The other two girls I’m closer to. Danielle thanks so much for being so blonde cos you’re such a source of entertainment! :P But sometimes it crosses over to the other side of the line I don’t call entertainment D: I didn’t really know you in Year1 and Year2, actually I didn’t really bother trying to know you cos we seemed like we’re from different worlds. But heck, now I think we’re both damn crazy and immature, although you’re definitely on the more extreme end of insanity and immaturity! Belinda, you’ve been a wonderful mentor rep, getting everything done on your own yeah(: Hahaha you know I was so relieved I got you as my mortal that time cos I was afraid I’ll get some weird person and have nothing to write to him/her. Hope you like that dung thing hahahha! And continue being your crazy loud self! :D

Ryan – I think your anti-GTok antics are quite amusing, but sometimes abit extreme lah. Hahaha you’ve become more outgoing these two years too! I think 401 just has this effect on everyone!

Chongwei, Alister - For your suanning, I must thank you also. Cos I’ve taken things more light-heartedly. My attitude towards most things have changed. Sometimes I still can’t tahan you all, but heck, I’ll just ignore you guys when that happens. But other times when certain things happen and you all happen to offend people I don’t exactly like, it totally makes my day hahaaha.

Jer Sheng – Most of the time you’re just totally irritating. But this term was quite good cos irritating somehow became amusing. What with the bouncing and cap and random outbursts of shouts/shrieks/noise/wtv. Must say alot of entertainment came from you too, but sometimes you really create alot of trouble and you don’t know how to look at the circumstances and act how you should.

Xinyi, Eugenia, Yuhan, Huanrong – The sanest people in our class I guess. And most mug hardworking haha. Especially Yuhan and Xinyi, I think you two keep our class average scores up :D But I don’t know how you all manage to stay that sane in this crazy class!

Boon Siong, Kiang Teng – Suan Danielle like crazy! And damn boliao also. I know Boon Siong cannot stand the noise in class sometimes haha but then should get used to it also. And take part in it cos it’s quite fun! Kiang Teng your blog is super cool but what happened why no more updates?

All the other guys – Talked to most of you before I guess, especially when the cards frenzy started. Before that I always thought you all were not fun and not nice, but turns out actually you all can be quite easily to talk to.

The only other person – I don’t like your stupid AP (I know alot of other people including myself have this problem too, but then we have these people who call us their friends which shows how ours is not so serious). Maybe you should go look in the mirror and know what’s wrong. It’s not our problem, really. Cos when everyone else thinks you’re AP and you think everyone else is also, you know where the problem lies (majority wins). So what if we don’t deserve your respect? Do you deserve ours?

Mrs Soong’s been a pretty good mentor, especially since our class is full of problematic people, with so many issues. Must have been a pretty rough two years as a mentor for her. But then again, most of us get along quite well so why think so bad of us? We’ve been making lots of noise in most of our classes, and our average results haven’t been really good, but so what? We had fun as a class and that’s all that matters.

Life goes on, reshuffling will take place for sure, next year who I’ll still be talking to, I don’t really bother, cos I know those people who I want to keep contact with, I will do so. As for the rest, we’ll just be part of one another’s memories and see how things go (: 401’s given me a wonderful two years, so thanks, I’ve been really lucky to get into this class, despite being so apprehensive at the start of last year (:

Nelson, Jerdine, Dayna, Whaipeng, Jiayi, your turn!

Nelson, Jerdine – I know we fell out a number of times this year over many things. Maybe all the projects and commitments just affected us somehow. But I’m really glad we’re back to our old selves, doing things together again. Those quarrels, disagreements, unhappiness, I’ll just put them somewhere at the back of my head, remind me how important our friendship is (: Thanks for being there, for accomodating me. Continue being your crazy selves cos that’s just the way we are! Our random talks, our random discussions, our random outings. Last year (or was it this year start?) I remember we kept going out for a period of time, like once a week to go eat/shop/something. Can we please find time to do that next year? And go read my email okay it’s super urgent why are you both dao-ing me?? Later I go do myself then you know ):

Dayna – Haha you’re probably like the best Year3 friend I have (other than my sis :D). Thanks for being such a wonderful friend, especially during that period when certain things happened, for all the support and encouragement. But you never heed my advice! See, now I’m fine already, and you leh? Nevermind lah, you still have us and many more friends! But just very wasted…

Jiayi, Whaipeng – Got to know you guys better these two years. Last time I didn’t even know Jiayi existed. And I thought Whaipeng was those kind of popular person so yeah, didn’t really have a good impression of you. Haha. But now’s so different! Now I know you’re more of our frequency de person, so yeah, hanging out with you is fun! Jiayi you’re super smart. But your ego is super huge. I always thought mine is big enough. But cos I ego about things that I obviously am not, so very obvious that it’s joking. But you ego about your smartness like so serious! If I don’t know you I will think you’re serious la! Hahaha but two of you are super funny and amusing also. And very fun :D

Lastly, sis! – Thanks alot for everything, cos there are things which we all never ever want to tell our friends, so I’m glad you’re there for me to tell to. I know sometimes I will black-face you easily la, but it’s also cos you’re my sis mah, so I black-face you alot also no hard feelings. Next year will be alot busier than this year, I’ll be in hostel, I’ll have new commitments, but I still hope we still spend time as a family. Sometimes I might argue with you, ignore you, scold you, but really, it’s all only for awhile. Cos I don’t want to see you wasting your time doing things that are not worth wasting your time on, cos I don’t want you to get used to being so careless, so forgetful, cos I want you to know that sometimes when you do things, you have to consider others’ feelings, especially mummy&papa. Rock on, I admit you’re smarter than me, but so what? I’m still your elder sis! Which means must respect me, listen to me! :D :D HAAHA

 

My sis is damn funny she wanted to copy out the whole scriptchecking schedule from the comp and it never occurred to her that we have printers at home HAHA you damn pro.

French exam this morning was fine. I totally didn’t study for it cos I was mugging my FRC for SIM2. After that I went to Causeway Point and ate at LJS with my sis before she went home and I went down to SYFC. I saw Ivan at the bus stop he went early also so he ended early. Mr Hi was nice enough to let me start early, so I did. Wah I think I’m damn bad at controlling the plane on ground cos I keep steering off the lines! :| But in the air one was okay, quite fun. I stayed an extra half an hour to play around with the SIM and practised controlling on the ground again and again. It’s better now I think.

Before the SIM I was able to read out my checks properly, but when I was in there I sort of blanked out and had to keep referring to the FRC. Damn sad I hope first sortie will be better. I saw Mr Wong, and I saw a coursemate before he went to fly first sortie. Wa he was damn nervous. I think I’ll be worse on my first sortie lor.

I booked wednesday all four waves and friday last wave.

 

When life seems to short change you, fight back with all you’ve got.

Super blackboard!

Chinese scriptchecking this morning. I did alot better than expected for both papers 1 and 2 :D I reached school at normal time with my sis. Then I tried studying BFC&french, but kept losing focus so I didn’t really do anything in school after all. Now I regret it, cos tomorrow I have SIM after french exam and I’m having trouble memorising all the checks right now ): Like, got 9 or 10 pages (A5-sized) to memorise today. I think I’ll just quickly look through french tomorrow morning or right before I sleep.

Went to Clementi Macs with Jerdine, Nelson and Whaipeng for lunch after scriptchecking. I’m super bloated now. I think nowadays students are very rich. Even the primary school kids. We saw so many CPS students at Macs eating the kind of meal any other person eats. When I was in primary school, I don’t even remember having so much money to go eat Macs with my friends on normal school days! And I don’t remember eating a full EVM set lunch (some even upsized!) all by myself. Wow, kids these days…

Wah it’s damn late already, I only have 4hours of effective studying time before 10pm, which is my sleeptime. I need to make sure I memorise all my checks until I can regurgitate all of them quickly and correctly without referring to the FRC, if not tomorrow I die. And Jiayi, I realised that SIM training is also graded on a 1 to 7 basis. Go see the PTT training preparation guide, page 1, point number 9 of “Reporting for training”. Which means cannot slack even if it’s SIM! And our course got quite a few people go fly sortie 1 already leh! Must catch up la! I think I will book for next wednesday cos whole day free and friday afternoon when I go to SYFC tomorrow.

 

We’ve only got 86,400 seconds a day to turn it all around or throw it all away;

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I tell you, if I find out it’s like that, I’ll be so damn sad cos you’re just making use of me ): And you’re not really someone I think would ever do that to me. But still ): ):

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Hello persons, I really really enjoy being with you, just talking and being myself, no need for pretence (:

Exams are almost over! :D At least the important ones are. Last paper on FRIDAY ): Wah french is damn sian I don’t feel like studying for it ): ): Last french school exam of my life. Next year then take DELF/DALF cos I want my diploma in french ahhahah I hope I pass all the papers man. After one year of no contact with french, must study before I take the tests.

Today’s papers were the best so far I think. Calculus was fine, but alot of careless mistakes. But still, it was easy. History was quite good hahah cos I didn’t study at all until after Calculus and I didn’t study much but I still managed to so the paper :D But screw, I had like 40minutes left after I finished all three questions :| So my question paper’s like full of drawings.

Chinese scriptchecking tomorrow. I hope I did okay for compo, cos I thought I wrote quite badly ): After that going Mabelle’s house to study french with her and my sis. Hopefully we’re efficient in mugging french.

Friday french exam, I hope after that no SIM, even though I booked. Cos I haven’t memorised all the checks D: I’m feeling very lazy and piggish now heh. Saturday SYFC again, luckily end early this week :D Sunday, should I go childlit? Maybe I’ll just go mass bah. Then can go out with family if my sis has no cath (I think she has though). Next monday is a free day for me! Tues is O-levels then I have my medical appointment. Wednesday is free, no school, cos scriptchecking. I got so many things I wanna do on monday&wednesday! But not going out. My house has enough things for me to keep myself busy for :D

Everday’s getting better, everyday’s adding on to the tally of good memories, good experiences. The bad ones don’t matter at all cos the good ones are more than enough to make up for them. Here’s a happy person you see(: But if a certain person would tell me something I wanna hear, my days could get better ;)

 

Dang it

I’m gonna fail math hons exam already ): ): Wah I think if I get 20/50 I’ll be super happy and thank god liao. I left alot of marks worth of questions blank, and anyhow crapped alot of questions also D: Luckily phys was better. If not today would have been such a bad day I won’t have the mood to study calculus.

Time to study calculus! History can study tomorrow, got like 3hours before the paper.

Three more papers to freedom! :D

Cos I love telling myself that you love me :D

 

I must focus like I initially planned to.

I finished my phys cheatsheet and I finished the two past year papers too (though I almost failed them but still, considered attempted)! Now I just need to practise more questions from the assgmts, find useful stuff to fill into the blank spaces on my cheatsht, then study math hons by practising even more questions! I shall attempt to complete both revision worksheets for math hons. And read through abit of calculus to prepare for math hons and also study for it at the same time.

Few more days left only :D

The school’s backgate is retarded. Don’t know what they are trying to do to it. Now you have to tap the card from the inside even if you’re intending to enter the school. Apparently the scanner outside the gate doesn’t work.

Today’s papers were more or less fine. Chem was okay, but I didn’t complete the paper. And not too sure about a few questions. English was quite okay. I thought it was easier than our summative compre. But it’s english, which means it’s hard to predict your marks just by the difficulty of the paper.

Math hons and phys tomorrow, good luck everyone! Though I think they shouldn’t put these two papers on the same day. Both so killer. Luckily phys got cheatsht.

 

I wanna shrink into a small ball and just disappear.

Sometimes I can’t really understand myself. Like suddenly when I see someone I don’t feel like seeing at the moment (even though usually I’m fine with him/her), I will just feel very irritated. Even if the person doesn’t even offend me in any obvious way. I think I’m quite an ass. So many moodswings. It’s really hard to make me truly happy, but so easy to make me irritated and angry. 
I like hotdogs. I like cheese sausages too. Eating makes me happy.

Chinese exam was fine. I wrote the narrative question, I hope I score. I quite like writing narratives, especially true stories. But I wrote today only cos I had no idea what the newspaper article thing was talking about.

I think I quite screwed genetics exam. But I studied quite alot for this paper! Compared to the other bio papers I’ve taken before so far. It’s time for a break, time for a good sleep. Recharge myself, then tomorrow SYFC from 8.30am to 4pm then come home try to mug chem or something.

WhaiPeng bought me this Little Miss Stella ez-link card sticker for my new ez-link card! :D Thanks so much (: && I found out it’s not a typo, cos there is really such a Little Miss character! Haha! Super cool la!