So I was offered the SMS(W) provisional scholarship two days ago. And today I received news that I didn’t pass the final cardiac scan, so no more hope of flying in the military. First thing I did after hanging up was stone there for awhile, then I let emotions get the better of me. Sounds like such a weakling right. But I just feel sad, having worked so long and hard (okay fine not that much effort actually), and having s bomb dropped on me 2 days after one of the best things in life took place. Such a rollercoaster ride.
At least I know that I was not offered the scholarship because of all the tests that I have passed, but because I was genuinely found suitable for such a lifestyle. Even though my NAPFA results suck, even though my PES status isn’t the best. I’m convinced that I want to go ahead, lead a life in the military, settle somewhere in the air force or the navy. I just need to get over the temporary sadness that I can’t achieve my dream anymore. And convince myself that there are other things worth working hard for as well. Life in there can be exciting even without flying. Yes, it’s now less a less attractive opportunity, but it’s still a more attractive one than all the other options I have.
No matter what I do, I will give my all and make the most out of what I am given. Everything happens for a reason. There is definitely something out there more suitable for me, and I know it’s not far from me.
wa, 我觉得你很厉害 for being able to go through so many stages to reach ur dream of flying! although u can’t fly in the military, u still can get rich and pursue flying in the future right, i want to go on ur private jet hor…